baby

Baby I been crying walking in the rain

Don’t u know im hiding run away again

cant take no more pain gotta stop this insane

don’t u know I love u and your making me this way 

rain is falling down on me tonight

cant u see its such a fuuny sight

u said ud be forever true to me

but I saw her with u & oh what a thing to do

bonk

ok today i was musing & talking to God about the I have plans for u that u may prosper..... yeah i got to musing what is Gods idea of prospering< I felt that i was not on track there is not alot of luxuries in our life and theres always too much month at the end of our money. so i asked God what his idea  of prosperity then i hung my head remembering there are alot of people that dont have clean water to drink, food to eat, a house  (apt) to  live in, you get the idea. When i got home today my neighbor offered me two huge hanging petunia pots some lily plants two blueberry plants ans a strawberry plant. Can we say bonk?

down day

ok not sleeping again hubby & me not getting along and pain level is way up. this month is hard because i had 2 babies taken home  (granted it was 28 & 37 yrs ago but still feels like yesterday to me) i am glad i have 1 friend that understands . why do people advertse apts say cats allowed but when u call them they say limit is 2> i Hves 3 cats (one is 18 yrs one is 11 and 1 is 9 ) what am i suppose to do? i cant give them up and i dont want to lie but i need another place to live? we are living in a 100+ yr old place with 17 steps up to our apt. It is getting too hard for me & disabled hubby to do the steps (i have major artheritis) In the winter this place is cold (think 62/64 degrees) way too cold for me there is no insulation and the cold just whips  thru this place but i am losing hope of being able to move this summer both for the financial reasons and for the cat situation. I try to have faith that GOd hs the perfect place but geeze cant He just put a huge blinking neon  sign saying Here Denny? Trying to be patient and let Hios timing work it out but i am not doing too well on it.